Saturday, November 30, 2002

im going crazy!! ki siao liao! working with an asshole like dat, who doesn't trust people's ideas and give a fucking damn about listening to others, MCP.. doesnt remembers wad i tell him.. treats wad i tell him as rubbish.. fucker.. worst partner of all times man..

does guys always trust girls lesser? why do they always have this thinking that they are more able? if he's more able, he wouldnt throw me here to work on this code all alone..

penned at ¶ 12:29 AM

Wednesday, November 27, 2002

ok.. my hand now hurts like mad.. big round bruise at my wrist.. result of not knowing how to play correctly.. =x anyway we got third.. haha.. quite dumbo of me to only go down todae.. well.. NOBODY told me the 1st match was yesterdae.. okok gotta do alot of things now.. prepare logbook fer tmr's assessment.. *prays she dun ask too much crap*

penned at ¶ 11:40 PM

I feel like smashing up something now.. screaming out as loud as possible.. slam someone on the floor... i hate java.. i really hate it... when i account for this, i forgot to account for that. so many fucking paths for wad.. kaoz... and he is not really helping.. always running ard to do hardware instead.. fug...

penned at ¶ 3:35 PM

Monday, November 25, 2002

really really getting sick of hall activities... ppl are never on time for meetings.. strolling in like nobody's biz.. man! ppl have got better things to do rather than sit and wait there for u princes and princesses to come! gosh..

anyway im super stressed abt our software... i am really trying my best to make it work.. =(

penned at ¶ 11:33 PM

Singing in the rain at the durian.

the plans today to eastcoast was scrapped cos hs woke up feeling very sick.. and the rest of us.. had either something on or something wrong with the body.. so postponed to next week.. so instead, i went wif dad and mum to ikea.. when i got into the car, dad and mum were quarrelling very fiercely over something i dunno wad.. so i took over the wheel.. and on the way there, we saw 2 car accidents, well actually is only 1.. but some stupid driver didnt notice the front car stopping cos of the accident in frt and he jus bang rite thru.. i saw the windscreen shattered into pieces, thank god my hands were still steady on the wheel.. *phew* anyway at ikea we bought a lot of stuffs.. haha.. i got a cd rack and some very very christmas looking boxes! got a bright pink cushion too.. seems like my mum was also influenced by me to get a bright pink rug fer the living room! but too bad it doesnt fit into our main colour theme so she got a beige one instead.. borrringgggg... oh and we had some yummy fried chicken wings and chocolate almond cake fer teabreak.. hahaha

anyway, after dat i rushed home to change and got ready fer the musical Singing in the rain at esplanade.. didnt really get to explore the esplanade cos me and ps were quite late in getting there.. as i was telling him dat tis musical had made me realise whom i really really wanna share my things with be it gd or bad.. cos i had 2 free tix frm someone dad knew.. and immediately i tot of ps.. yup.. so there.. anyway, the both of us goons went there without checking out what it really was.. i saw the commercial in the tv quite a few times before but didnt really know wad it was.. jus dat it kinda appealed to me.. yup anyway the musical was quite good.. the singing was simply marvellous.. esp the lead actress' singing! the guy was not too bad.. esp in the rain part.. heh.. jus luv the rain.. and the orchestra too.. yea everything abt them was jus great.. oh the theatre.. i must say somethin abt it too.. u may call me mountain.. but it looked exactly as how i would imagine it to be in the comics and in the movies! there were circles and many many storeys.. heh.. anyway, i came out with a great feeling and a big smile on mi face.. dun tink i'll ever ferget tis 1st musical(yesyes im mountain) ive watched.. it was just a lovelylovely musical.. u oughta catch it if u can!
alrite.. another start of a super duper boring week.. ta fer now!

penned at ¶ 1:01 AM

Sunday, November 24, 2002

went out with ps for shopping after training today.. was tired like hell, but still im always there if my buddie needs company for shopping! she bought a swatch watch fer her dandan.. but i didnt get wad i want cos the colour i want fer the shoe is outta stock.. the design which i want for the anklet was outta stock too.. damn.. anyway we didnt walk very much todae cos ps wasnt feel very well.. so we sat down at coffeebean wisma and caught up a whole lot.. havent seen her for a very long time too.. updated me wif her stuff.. and me.. well.. not much to update wif.. haha..

oh yea.. saw in the newspapers and from his site about the french movie A la folie pas du tout showing in cinemas.. audrey taotou from amelie's acting in it too.. wanna catch it.. but dun think those who have not taken french before will wanna go and see a movie in some foreign language.. maybe can ask some of my french classmates..

penned at ¶ 1:11 AM

Saturday, November 23, 2002

new new!

heyhey.. new new layout.. haha.. not dat new actually.. kinda similar to my old one.. can't shake off the pinky feeling even though my fav colour isn't pink.. though i luv it durin my pri sch days.. haha.. any comments? Oh yea.. speaking of comments, all my old comments were gone!! poOf! dunno why.. didn't edit the commenting part but still its gone.. =(

penned at ¶ 12:45 AM

Thursday, November 21, 2002

aah.. ahh.. pain pain..

my wholeeeeeeee body's aching.. hands, arms, neck, legs, back.. wherever... aching all around.. frm the ISG floorball yest.. haha.. didnt do very well.. considering our fac not many zai kias.. well and so.. we only one won.. but anyway we did our best.. so dats the most important..

anyway, ive been spending my time the past few nights trying to come up with a new layout (not alot of time considering i spend so much time on the teevee haha) and being the trial and error kid i am, im trying very hard to get wad i really want.. haha..
oh yup, our mouse is finally working.. up and running except fer the loco part.. hopefully mel and chit will be able to get it done by the end of this week so dat we can finally concentrate on the software part! Boy are we lagging behind.. =/

penned at ¶ 10:46 PM

Tuesday, November 19, 2002

Went shopping today with aj.. wad a lovely thing to do.. haha we both didnt get wad we set out to buy, instead she got a tee and i got 2 nice looking tops! one down for glady's wedding.. =p

penned at ¶ 11:57 PM

Monday, November 18, 2002

terrible day. :~

firstly...... i lost my anklet in the lab... yea.. it just dropped off... dunno where i dropped it.. prolly around the labs or along the paths.. couldnt find it anyway.. was very devastated... i love it so much k... sobsob.. secondly... my lab couldnt work.. stupid breadboard and the input glitches wasted us one day trying to find out wad was wrong wif it... finally yuwei found dat wad we did was actually correct.. its just the circuit and the inputs are not being obedient..3rdly.. i reaaaaaaaaaaaally reaaaaally dislike him.. sickening irritating ass... if he doesnt talk i wouldnt noe he is not dumb.. stupid asshole.. nobody was talking to him and who asks him to reply me? tmd... fucked up day..

penned at ¶ 5:00 PM

Sunday, November 17, 2002

Caught Harry Potter in town today.. It was not bad.. not bad.. followed the book very closely.. nono i didnt read the 2nd book, in fact i read the forth book.. haha i thought that the weasley's clock was very cute.. think if u didnt read the book, u wouldnt take note of it.. =p haha okok dun tempt u liaoz... anyway tis weekend passed quite well.. had training and had some leisure.. so it waz quite ok.. better than sleeping it away at home.. ah.. but i did sleep at home too! haha

penned at ¶ 11:54 PM

Saturday, November 16, 2002

Hope Floats..

Watched Hope Floats just now.. cant say it was a very nice movie.. a tad boring.. but watched it cos of the lovely sandra bullock.. Just so pretty.. got one phrase from the show.. "You think there is always another chance behind another chance and another chance?" But of cos not.. dats why i did something dat i would not usually do.. taking some risks.. but life is just about it ainit?

//re-edit: watched the chinese movie xing yuan and temptation island on tv too.. (haha becoming a real tv potato couch at home.. getting worse with cable..) though ive watched the chinese show b4.. it still moved me to tears.. haha.. yea im a emotional freak.. but its reaaaally very touching.. the fact that u cant stop the one u actually really love from leaving u forever.. ayeaye.. all the luvy duvy shows are on tv!

penned at ¶ 10:51 PM

Friday, November 15, 2002

=D

Talked to moo today and watched tv tgt as well! For a moment after seeing her initially, i tot it wld be awkward cos we havent spoke to each other for such a long time (not very long actually but i tink it is).. avoided looking at her directly.. haha.. silly of me.. and so we talked a little.. gossiped a little.. it was all very nice.. =D

penned at ¶ 10:42 PM

Thursday, November 14, 2002

super duper on fire.

Meeting informed only 1 night before the meeting itself. Informed through icq? no place no details. Just time. It wasnt the secretary who informed me.. some person by word of mouth.. And while i was rushing the details to give report to them, stupid asshole j informed me 1 hour before meeting itself through icq dat it is cancelled.. am i supposed to be stuck sitting here in front of the comp waiting for ppl to tell me anything? what the hell is the handphone for? what if i had gone for another meeting before that and waiting like an idiot in frt of the room? wtf.... Unorganised and hasty decision making.. arghh..... arseholes.. Make me rush like hell..

penned at ¶ 9:14 PM

Wednesday, November 13, 2002

Had a nice long talk with rach just now.. havent talk to her in a super long time.. told her about why i didnt wanna go over to 66 to find them.. she understood cos she has the same thinking as me.. really felt like good old days again.. I need somebody to make the first move before i'll open up to them.. wad she said was quite true.. to forget the old, find someone new.. its terrible to be all alone.. but of course its not as easy as just saying it.. feelings are involved.. not just any plaster is able to cover up the cut created at the end of it all..
Felt quite bad about treating moo that way over the meeting.. didn't really talk to her or acknowledge her.. dunno why.. just didnt wanna say anything.. guessed she felt something wrong too but both of us jus didnt wanna do anything abt it.. think its my fault.. kinda unconciously started tis while trying to avoid the whole bunch of them..

penned at ¶ 11:57 PM

What if...

what if someone asks you.. hey.. im on ur invisible list? Why? you dun wanna talk to me?
How would u answer?

ears: What if - Kate Winslet
What if i had never let you go.. Would you be the man i used to know..

penned at ¶ 1:45 AM

Tuesday, November 12, 2002

ahh.. finally a time to blog..

Actually was quite free the past few days.. Just didnt feel like blogging.. nothing of significance to blog about too.. But anyway.. today's the 2nd day of ddP.. at least didnt feel so emptyhanded and blurblur today.. managed to help out abit and talked more to my group mates.. =p takes a lot of time for me to warm up to ppl..

actually sometimes i dunno whats going on in their brains.. or in their minds.. wads wrong with not wanting to eat with the others? felt like kicking his ass.. nobody else's but his.. my mind is in a twirl..

penned at ¶ 9:30 PM

Thursday, November 07, 2002

went for a haircut today.. it really is a scary experience for me everytime i cut my hair.. dunno if the hairstylist would understand what i want and whether i really wanted what i told him.. wanna make my money's worth yet dun wanna cut too much.. haha.. anyway was noticing the hairstylist doing my hair.. Realise that actually accessories really does makes one look different.. the guy was very small size.. looks quite inexperienced and young.. den i saw his hands bracelets and ring.. shoes and style of cutting.. changed my opinion of him.. ahhhh.. crap.. dunno wad to write..
anyway.. i got a very very pretty swarovski anklet today! hah.. something to pamper myself with..wanted to get a teeshirt frm quiksilver for bro but cant find any nice ones.. actually shopping alone wasnt such a bad thing after all.. but i had to always psycho myself i'm not alone.. but i hope tis wont be happening very often!

Been having a dizzy head since yesterday.. Dunno whats the problem.. just took a panadol.. hope it would go away.. it doesnt hurt.. just that i always feel like im spinning around..

penned at ¶ 8:58 PM

YaY.. final freedom.. not much of a freedom feeling though.. none of moi friends are available to enjoy with me.. either with their GEs or some other dumbdumb subjects.. so i haf to spend time all alone with miself.. Actually loy had planned to go zouk tonite.. considering its wedn nite.. miss aj is not goin.. so i dun feel sociable enuff to mingle with his other frds and so i didnt go... boring! But well.. i caught my fav charmed. oh yea and small ville too.. it wasnt dat bad.. Read harry potter's Goblet of fire after dat too.. ha! u may think wad a boring persn tis girl is.. well.. dats at the only thing i can do.. and i luv doin it too!

penned at ¶ 2:29 AM

Sunday, November 03, 2002

Had quite a great time todae..

Met up with a very very very old friend of mine.. havent seen him for almost 5 yrs? haha.. yes dat ewe.. so long.. he was very nice to accompany me to sls to get my writer and walk ard! Got a super chio writer to match my ugly tower.. haha the colours match though..
After dat i hopped over to OG next door to catch up with my parents and got a few pieces of clothings... i so wanted to get that pair of levis.. it was on discount! but i had jus got one abt 6 mths ago.. hmm... actually daddy wanted to pay for it.. just couldnt bear to let him spend dat amt of money.. sigh sigh.. hopefully there'll be another sale when i haf considered it again.. oh.. and had watercakes and grass jelly at the market nearby.. hee.. so good to have food away from canteen 14.. =p

penned at ¶ 6:34 PM

Saturday, November 02, 2002

i miss them.. i dunno what to say.. but i miss them.. miss studying with them.. wif mr m.. jonnyboy.. roger and him of course.. See why i didnt wanna come straight home after exams yest? Dats why.. sigh.. i'll feel it sooner or later.. can't run away frm my emotions.. i dunno if.... if... if.... i still............. i mean after all this time spending......... of cos he doesnt feel dat way... hes an ass.. but i still like dat ass.. i tink i do...

lucky fer the dratted DDP.. have to stay back in school for almost half of the hols... sigh.. my brain's fried with all my imaginations and thots...

penned at ¶ 10:09 PM

6 mths have passed..

Yoo hoo?? Can anybody see any pics above?
I think i've finally made it work! Funny how i can only upload the pics successfully when im at home... Oh yea.. thanks to Leong of course who told me what to do.. =)

Anyway, i'm finally at home.. Alot of things have changed ard here.. Ive got cable now.. cable vision too i think.. havent really gone and explore the tv yet.. haha.. a new aircon.. well it broke down the last time i was home.. it caused the whole house to go short circuit.. hee..

and.. it's been a long six months.. i did the same thing as i did exactly six months ago.. memories of those flooded back even though i was trying to put up a huge firewall ard my mind.. didn't succeed.. Things have gotten a tad bit better.. but not by much though.. Nothing has changed.. i'm still me.. you're still you.. just that we can't stand each other now anymore.. feel sad when i think of it.. whatever happened? *shrugs*..

penned at ¶ 6:54 PM

Friday, November 01, 2002

"i'm freeeeeeee.. freeee fallinnnn..........."

Finally... all the important papers are over.. still got a rubbish paper engineers and society on wed... shall start studyin a little by little.. haha.. anyway.. the paper today sucked like dunno wad.. its the worst out of the 5.. came out feeling like shit.. feeling like i would have to see it again next sem.... damn bad.. and even after buyin a few stuff outside, i still didn't feel any better... =(

From now on, i can finally be alone again, not that i want to.. but because there's no more studying tgt...

argh.. i dunno what im talking abt... freak..

penned at ¶ 9:19 PM