Sunday, December 18, 2005
Hohoho!
i had a great day today!
me and ps went for a hair dye job. it was quite a nice job done although now my hair is totally like grass, as my mum puts it, like the ends of a broken broom. hmmm.
after that we pia home for a bath and change of clothes b4 zoomin down to PS to meet the rest for dinner at manhattan's fish market.. heh today we were all given a surprise by hs.. she was early! anw we girls were all dressed very nicely, somehow after starting work we start to put more effort into dressing.. come to think of it, i havent seen ps and hs in jeans for a long time!
anyhow, after dinner, we started doing the christmas exchange.. its one week early for us! it was quite fun cus i think i havent had any gifts for christmas from friends before! i dun usually celebrate xmas this way la.. i got 5 glasses from south africa from jeremy and i think hs secretly loves the gstring and the memo holder i gave her hehe.
after dinner we went to long bar at raffles hotel for drinks and chill. its really quite a nice place with live band and free flow of peanuts! the peanut shells were all over the floor and we can just throw peanut shells at each other! i guess we were the only table fooling around. heh. pity there was no space on the 2nd floor else it would be even nicer! =(
as usual we took loadsa photos, the girls i mean, and the guys were such hard objects of photography! eyes closed, mouth dirty, fooling around, not nice smiley.. u name it..
but we had a good time. and i love it! =)
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
over dinner, i asked mum a question.
'what if i never got married in the end?'
my question was met by many many awkward statements, experiences, hearsays of what she heard, seen, thought. that auntie, this auntie's husband tolerate how many how many years, who did what to whom, whose attitude toward who is bad. even my bro was dragged into it.
and then i came into the picture. she has a wired way of thinking she knows her daughter really well. i do love her really, but sometimes, she doesnt noe her own kid well. or maybe dats the impression i gave her. just because of the occasional attitude i show in the family, she thinks i treats my bfs and friends the same way. she thinks the quarrels and the screamings i had with myself and the phone in the past was my fault, though i doubt she knows wad happened. she thinks i caused the breakup cus of my attitude. i don't deny i have faults of my own, but i hate it when people judge even though they are half blind. im not angry but im displeased.
parents have a weird way of parenting. they expect the children to do the work in communication. its funny how i believe that when parents were in their late teens or early twenties, they would have thought of the perfect way to bring up their kids, but when they actually bring the kid into this world, all great plans and thoughts of it vanished. i ought to write down how i intend to bring up my kid, if i do get married that is.
when i communicate too much, like this evening, i wished i never said anything.
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005
i can imagine myself on fire now. my ears are bursting with smoke.
i have a rough idea of why im so fucking pissed.
we are going for a trip soon. everybody seems to be in the least interested mood to do any information gathering or give any thought about it. nobody takes the effort to ask around. nobody wants to do any organizing. nobody wants to do something nice and out of the blue and enjoyable for once. everybody just wait and wait and wait. wait till last minute then plan. then screw up. maybe some did. but i don't know, or at least the person who knows most about the place is just too concerned abt itself.
is it so busy for you to even spare a moment while you are joking with your colleagues to ask for a little bit of information? its been a month since we last discussed about it. i don't understand why you can waste your time talking about rubbish and still complaining its late and you're still in the office. and even in the amount of rubbish, theres nothing productive toward this direction coming out of it. and the consistent excuses and behaviour that you give us, anyone who meets you, i really cannot tolerate it. i might say the fumes disappear when i see you becus im all happy again that you finally reach the destination, but i don't see how it can just happen 99% of the time. should i let you suffer for half an hour? i always say, but i don't do.
or should i just not do anything since nobody's doin anything?
i think the time of the month is here.
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
been feeling very blue these few days.
is it just my mood or am i affected by what others do?
i quieten down to the other extreme when im surrounded by people more vocal than me.
2 people cancelled on me.
and i refused to cancel my ME time for them.
i dislike people who take advantage of others goodness.
my thoughts are very random.
who do i turn to? no one.
im too much in the cave to get out.
im still struggling and falling deeper.
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Sunday, December 04, 2005
its a chore waiting for long hair to dry..
had a good day today.
had quite a good time at training today.
sweated it all out.
only to replace all the fats lost during dinner with js n vin.
always thot they were just very corny boys but looks can be deceiving.
under each of them their brains are actually churning and thinkin of damn chim stuff.
theres more to it than just simple love.
how can anybody anticipate?
i admit some of the things we talked are some dat i havent given any deep thot to.
nevertheless they're still very entertaining and are like the wang sha ye feng of today!
went to momo to finish up js birthday drink and for once i actually didnt go to the dance floor! was just chilling out and kenna saboed to drink while playing games.
another week of no entertainment from him. maybe it will be like before?
im unsure. im confused.
but i'd be scared too if anything happened. like vin. :S
i like these boys of mine. :p
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