Wednesday, April 18, 2007
im chatting with mad, and im getting a lil mad.
saying im not spending enough time with them. only shuffling between work and bf. cooping myself to myself. the explainations i gave was because they happen to either meet up when i already have events planned, or they meet up on fridays, which i dun really like, becus they dress nicely while i dress down in jeans and any old normal top. its an excuse to her, she said. i got a lil pissed. maybe im weird in not wanting to meet them when i dress down, but its sort of an inferiority feeling which she will never understand. and i dun like it when they plan it last minute and expects me to be able to make it to the gathering. its like if u book me at least 1 week in advance and im available, i will definitely go for it. arrrrg.
was introduced to m*cap today at work. i sat in the training session for 2 hours, with almost nothing being absorbed except for 5% of whatever the trainer was saying. i dunno jstl, jsp, xml, spring, herbinate. felt like a retard listening to aliens speak. :(
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Sunday, April 15, 2007
ahhh. finally the end of my first work week at the new co. it has been a super duper boring week reading documentations, trying not to fall asleep, thinking of ways to make time go faster, planning my toilet breaks so that it wont seem too obvious im slacking. heh. this is so different from the previous week where i was so busy up to my neck.
my ex-co announced the bonus and increment. hai. if i had stayed i would have gotten all that. and it would almost be the same as what im having now. but well, there is no point looking back now. if i had stayed i would have to do all those shit that they are doing now over there. goods and bads. i see a slight future in the co here, but well, all are just hearsay now. cant tell till im really in it.
the people in my ofc now are quite alright. at least i still have a kaki to talk to. but it seems he wont be staying for long either. the rest of the peeps are a tad senior and old, so it wont be wise to gossip too much. lessons learnt from the ex-co.
hopefully next week will be a better learning week..
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Thursday, April 05, 2007
officially jobless for the next 2 days. teehee.
was busy right up to the last minute just before i packed my table for the final time. amazed at how much table space i have after i cleared up my documents from over 21 months ago. haha.
what i left behind: a whole pile of shit documents for my poor new colleagues to do cus of the shitty migration to the newer and better integrated system. i guess leaving now is good for me cus i wont have to do any of those shitty work and see the incompetent boss's face anymore. but i feel bad that my leaving has added pressure to my dear partner. :( well i have no choice. i tried to speak up and request for easier access, but well, all the boss can say to us is that my partner just have to teach the new guy a lil everyday and he will get the hang of it. point is, we're so tied up rushing documents and requests for users and the new team, where do we have the time to teach in this uber period? if we teach, we may as well do it ourself since its faster. Aye, everything for her is easily said. pui. i would like to see when will be the next resignation from our department.
had lunch with the young peeps b4 i left. as i was sitting at the bustop, i suddenly felt so alone. it dawned on me that i will never return to that greyish, maze-like, 4 in a cubicle department. although 1 or 2 of the ppl there arent very nice, most of them are very very good people. this being my first real job after graduation, the attachment to the department was especially strong. well as usual, being the emo me starts to feel sad, yada yada.. :'( but i know its a step i have to take to be a happier person.
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