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 Sunday, December 31, 2006

home is no longer a safe place to be in anymore.




2006 started well, but with this ending, im not sure if its a year i want to remember.
happy new year to all.

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 Tuesday, December 26, 2006

its post christmas day, and i've developed a very dizzy headache resulting from either lack of sleep or lack of quality sleep. my ear is ringing non stop and my room keeps spinning round.

this year i didnt get to meet all of the ntu peeps cus my baby was busy working and could only come at 11. only met reman and gf and the usual 4. luckily for me my boy got along quite well with the rest of them. :p

the next day was spent busy packing and moving with my boy and kel's help. christmas dinner and meeting up with kel and gang later on. heh the spotlight was all on adam who hadn't brought a partner to the gathering since 10 years ago. 'twas abit awkward la cus of the odd couple.

christmas day last min packing again. zoomed off to my boy's extended family gathering. yikess. i felt weird again in the land of different dialects. totally understand how he felt when he joined my family chalet the last time. haha. seeing the kids open their presents reminded me of how my childhood christmas went with uncle jeff and auntie maurine. pity now everything's all different.

5 more days to end of 2006!

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 Saturday, December 23, 2006

im confirmed moving on freakin christmas day.

where the fuck do i have the time to move house on christmas day? or rather, move room instead. there wont be any jolly ho ho ho. i'll be as tired as a dog at the end of this LONG holiday.

tomorrow morning i'd be working at 9am. and now its 2. evening will be at wendy's place. xmas eve evening will be dinner with my boy and meeting up with kel and gang. xmas day gathering with his family on the day itself.

our days are dictated by a man who has no qualms about giving time spacing. i seriously have no idea whose fault it is, them? the man? or me? argh.

oh well at least my cupboards are now 90% packed. but with my table and floor totally unpacked, i can totally see how my next few days schedule are going to be.

and tis the season to be jolly fofofo. pui.

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 Monday, December 18, 2006

i feel like just quitting without a new job.

my heart is turning uglier and uglier by day and i become more depressed with each work day. i hate my job.

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 Saturday, December 16, 2006

i want to see the northern lights!

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 Thursday, December 14, 2006

back has started to come back and haunt me again.

it started a lil naggy on sunday morn. but i carried on painting ONE wall with my boy. the next morning i woke up i felt it. i was back to sleeping at night without turning my body. walking like a penguin. moving very slowly. :( i already had a badminton game scheduled for mon evening!! grr. yea ok, i know. i shouldnt rush into games now.

back to seeing dr ho. now i can walk better. hopefully i can sleep better tonight and wake up fine in the morning.

christmas is coming. i was looking forward to it since november. but ever since i found my stand in my job, and my health getting worse, my christmas mood has almost totally disappeared. come back soon! i want to be happy and have fun tis jolly season!! fa la la la la...

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 Tuesday, December 05, 2006

been in quite a low mood recently.

i feel like i have to suppress many things in me.
i cannot talk as freely like before.
there's some pressure pressing on me that i find it hard to catch my breath some times.
i have extreme mood swings, and i always feel like crying.
i want to coop myself at home and not face the world.
i don't want to bother others about my problems.
i think my problems are non existent sometimes.
i imagine the worst of things.

i feel.. no motivation to carry on.

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