Friday, February 28, 2003

im actually quite sad today.. i walked back from training alone.. not wanting to join the rest fer dinner.. dunno why.. just suddenly feel i dun wanna be around them.. feels like im not part of them.. yea yea.. i sumtimes will feel tis way.. im a really weird person.. and.. i couldnt think of anybody to call when i was walking.. i noe ps and hs will be willing to hear.. but.. about kl.. i don't even want to consider calling him.. tis probably means he doesnt have a place in me.... sighz..
anyway.. its probably the buildup of so many things dat happened dat led me to being so swingy today.. had alot of rashes around my neck and shoulder area due to alcohol.. serves me right.. drank till i was almost dead drunk last nite at mw2.. luckily i already found ppl to share cab back to hall.. if not.. =/ yeh.. and tis whole hols is SO wasted... time spent on rubbish.. like typing tis among other stuff.. reading a little.. sleeping alot.. playing games.. argh! im just so urgh with moi....
oh.. and i sorta found out from my neighbour dat he is goin out with her to buy some stuff.... just noticed dat they just came back... i wonder wad kinda feeling dat was.. of course i dun mind them goin out tgt.. considering we're not tgt anymore.. and i dun think i have any more feelings for him.. but but.. there was a tinge of sumthin... probably imagine them goin out... hmm.. hmm... im such a biatch...

penned at ¶ 12:32 AM

Wednesday, February 26, 2003

hmm.. so many things have happened in a matter of a few days.. very highs.. and very lows..
told hs about him.. she doesnt encourage it.. but said will support me no matter wad decision i make.. even zeen also doesnt see good the relationship.. wads wrong with a guy when even his good friend doesnt put in good words for him? his past is really bad.. i know all about it of course.. i was the one he confided in ages ago.. and now im the one.. but its been so long.. 3 yrs? he probably has changed.. giving him the benefit of the doubt... but.. im very happy with my happy-go-lucky life now.. i dun need new ppl.. new things.. i hate changes.. have i mentioned dat b4? dun think so.. yeh.. i hate changes..

penned at ¶ 1:20 AM

Saturday, February 22, 2003

once again.. i had a terrible fright of my life when i woke up half an hour ago.. not really... i expected it.. when i stood up and tried to step forward with my right leg.. i almost collapsed onto the floor.. my hipbone/leg pain has come back to haunt me after 3 months.. i have seriously no idea wad did i do to make it come back.. i couldnt take any more steps and had to really limp and lean on my left leg to get me to the toilet.. i did everything i could in the holidays to find the cause of it.. went for xray.. took 'sponge-forming' medicine to cushion the area near the pain.. no avail... i seriously have no idea wads wrong with it.. theres a match later against nus.. i hope to have a good working leg running by then.. =(

penned at ¶ 11:01 AM

Thursday, February 20, 2003

bought a really nice and darn ex sweater and esprit today while out with aj and glen.. heh.. we really walked alot of places till our soles were painful and legs were tired..

yup.. and anyway kl met us later while we were at the foodcourt resting our legs and drinking water... it was quite awkward in the beginning with them having nothing much in common to talk about.. =/ but den aj said he looked like jack.. which wasnt a gd thing at all.. hmm... after dat me and kl talked a whole lot upstairs.. hmm.. hmm... i dunno.. i really have no answers to the questions being asked.. if only there was a fixed ans for me.. both of us wouldnt be in such misery now..

penned at ¶ 11:13 PM

Tuesday, February 18, 2003

artistic molecular rendering.. errkss.... for remembrance anyway.. ha!

penned at ¶ 12:42 AM

Sunday, February 16, 2003

hmm.. last night at feifei's chalet was quite alrite.. it sure was indeed weird meeting up ppl whom u spent the first 6 years of your studying life with.. however, we could talk quite well after meeting up! =)
heh.. the guys still remained the same.. looks and all.. and wenyao.. haha.. he really looks innocent and a little gullible.. =/ we cheated him of alot of chips at the mahjong table.. ha!
yeh and anyway.. kl insisted on sending me home after the rest left.. it was quite weird(again!).. hmm.. see how things goes.. life's really busy for me this sem.. got no time to think abt all tis extra stuffs.. can barely handle my normal daily boring routine.. dunch like changes.. =(

penned at ¶ 2:16 PM

Thursday, February 13, 2003

i think humans are so funny...

spend your free time thinking of it and wanting it... and when it comes to you.. ure at a lost of what to do...

penned at ¶ 1:09 AM

Wednesday, February 12, 2003

just got back frm aj's house.. heh.. can say her birthday celebration was quite a success.. the people whom she wanted to come, came.. the food was more than enough for the ppl too.. we ate.. laff and had merry! =p tink quite alot of ppl fly her kite though.. yea but anyway another thing dat ought to be mentioned was dat reman passed his driving today too! =p now almost all of the ppl in our clique have licenses liao.. except fer glen and aj..
aye aye.. anyway gotta go for pz's birthday tmr again.. hmm.. tis year will be a busy year... next sat and next sun too.. ahh.. burns a big hole in the pocket... =x but then again, i wont because of this not attend any of my close friends gathering.. i cant stand those who use studies and busy as an excuse not to attend.. its not as if i DOn't need to study too.. gr..

anyway just chatted with him again.. seems to be chatting more tis few days? hmm.. it indeed feels weird to be talking to him again like nothing happened b4..

penned at ¶ 1:01 AM

Monday, February 10, 2003

after chatting with reman and zx today while wiring up the board.. i realise i have no idea about what i look for in a guy.. well yea i might say communication and understanding.. but then.. its like no concrete traits and character.. ya noe? but then again.. those are what u look for.. might not be what you'll get most of the time.. gotta rethink my list again.. haha

penned at ¶ 3:21 PM

Sunday, February 09, 2003

glad that i went to 1st auntie's house today.. was so reluctant initially cos i havent done any work (like i would at home hurhur).. and yup.. i interacted alot with my 2 older male cousins today.. we havent spoken to each other for like.. um.. 3-4 yrs? even during new year for the past few years, because there are many other cousins around, so we dun really talk to each other.. not that our age gap is quite large, but there was nothing much to say.. me and my cousin um.. well exchanged gossips about wad we hear from our mums.. distant relatives (like me, who doesnt always go for the extended family gathering) will think that everyone gets along very well with everyone cos most of them are gambling and laughing.. but there are actually some hidden minor dislikes for everyone im sure..

penned at ¶ 11:46 PM

Friday, February 07, 2003

im so pissed with myself.. forgot all about the students exchange thing was due tomorrow.. which is like now... didnt find out anything abt the other unis... didnt bring documents.. didnt ask dad about it.. aaaaaaaargh! =(

penned at ¶ 1:58 AM

Thursday, February 06, 2003

what do ya do when you find that everyone around you keeps letting you down?
yesyes i know everybody's style of doin things is different.. or probably when i think of certain ppl.. i only think abt their bad side.. gettin shortcuts.. well.. maybe i myself have actually performed some of tis acts miself just that i didnt know about it.. well well.. to each his own i guess..

penned at ¶ 2:40 AM

Monday, February 03, 2003

Happy lunar new yr!

ahh.. hmm.. 3rd day of new year already.. hmm.. same as for the rest of the other years.. just dat this yr more unlucky.. was down with the flu and fever on the first 2 days.. im alrite now though.. heh.. most of my cousins really grew horizontally.. even those in ns! thot ns was supposed to slim them down.. hurhur.. heh.. battle of the bomboms.. and i realise i forgot some of my cousins' names.. only know their nicknames.. like ah ya.. ah paul.. ah wei.. sheesh.. forgetful me.. after all those memorizing of yuck notes..

anyway went to visit teacher's today with the usual gang plus shirleen, py, rach, ah peng, zj, mz, kl and later on kf.. yf was unfortunately down with the chicken pox.. we went round to kaan's.. lao goh's.. and huang da ma's.. really mass visit =) but im very happy cos i get to see all those ppl again.. ppl whom i spend my best youth time with.. =D

penned at ¶ 10:51 PM