Sunday, February 29, 2004

just came back from a match.. an incredible goal scored.. but we let in 2 thereafter.. bloody ***..

im still pissed. still VERY angry. he said he would call last night. from msia, with his colleagues, most of which are girls, one of which is the bitch. oh yes, he called at 8pm last nite. i told him to call back later at nite when he was settled down cos he was shopping then. i didn't want to get in his way of enjoying with his friends. was i stupid? stupid to be considerate for him? he said he would call later at night to ask abt my bro n abt the car. but he never did call. i waited till 2. i pondered about the reasons why he didnt call. His friend lost the hp which has autoroam to sg? bull shit, he has so 2 other msian friends there. he forgot my no.? he had so much fun with the girls he forgot he has a girlfriend? he told me to trust him, even if the bitch is there. i trusted him. i told him to go even though i wished he wouldnt. but the trust, has been thrown into the chute.

fuck, i didnt want to type all this out, i have nowhere else to let the steam out.

penned at ¶ 6:56 PM

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

well.. jus as i posted the prev post, he msged.. i wonder if he can feel me talking about him.. but anyhow, im glad for his msg.. he asked me to take care n go home if cant take it... a good change...

penned at ¶ 12:21 PM

i feel like im threading on thin ice.... im having a really painful headache now.. but i cant tell him.. for fear he'll say for the 100th time i have to go see a specialist.. i cant tell him my right butt muscle hurts like hell whenever i walk for fear he'll say i shld go seek more medical attention even though ive told him the xray i toook doesnt show anything... i cant discuss our problems with him for fear he'll flare up and then we'll quarrel to no end again.. im afraid to trigger his quarrel mode... so i jus keep quiet... i stay in a box..

penned at ¶ 12:15 PM

Monday, February 23, 2004

hmmm.... all the weekends seem very long and short at the same time..
many many things done yet so little time for rest...
but well i guess next week i will have all the rest i want..
i feel like ima dead fish now... bloody tired...

penned at ¶ 2:35 PM

Thursday, February 19, 2004

im tired.. sleepy.. and hungry...

feeling a lil lost too.. cant find myself...

penned at ¶ 11:27 AM

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

hummm.. seems like i havent wrote for a few days..

been busy working.. going to school.. going out on weekdays (reluctantly)... just becos im soooo tired...
basically theres nothing special for me to enter here cos my daily life is just so boring.. but im not sure why today is passing so slowly... maybe cos we're on a little cold battle.. and me always hiding in invisible.... or maybe cos SHE DA b**... is here... maybe its she... even takes my appetite for lunch away...
blabbering.. blaaaaaaaaaaab... boring..

penned at ¶ 3:37 PM

Sunday, February 08, 2004

feel im like wasting my time.. wasting my youth.. my time.. argh.. i dunno what ive been doing everyday.. time jus passes by like dat... its a straight line.. no ups... few downs.. anyways im feeling real uneasy rite now... shaking as im typing tis.. feeling like puking.. wads wrong.. im not sure... *prays i'll be ok soon*

anw i met up wif ewe jus now for coffee after i had dinner wif kl n his family at swenson.. well he didnt wanna join us cos he was rushing back to sch for his assignments.. as usual.. im surprised ewe actually took the initiative to ask for a meet up.. something he would NOT do if it were 7 years ago.. it was nice talking to an old old old friend after sooo long..

and.. i miss my old life.. i miss huiwen.. i miss everything i had 3 mths ago.. im emotional again.. argh

penned at ¶ 11:56 PM

Thursday, February 05, 2004

i hate my job like some guys hate ns.
i hate the sup jus like how some guys hate their officers.

penned at ¶ 11:34 AM

i felt a lil grossed out as i was walking on the way to work today. there was this old man, cycling along the roads, and then i heard him gather all his wadever, and spat out onto the grasspatch between me & him just 2m away.
havent the govt or news put in much much effort to inform and educate people in this times of viruses and deadly illnesses dat they shld be hygenic and not anyhow spit or such? soemtimes when i see such scenes, my legs are so tempted to walk me across to the person to say, UNCLE/excuse me, you shouldnt do that. but so far i havent done so. yes, maybe older folks still havent got the idea abt how the situation is today... dun get me wrong, im not biased against them.. in fact i love and pity the lonely old folks.. but well, lets hope with all the media reports on the recent viruses are massive enough to let them be aware of it...

on a side note, my sup has jus given me a whole lot of stuff to do.. with deadlines and all... one which is today.. wtf? i have to wait for the other guy to do den i can do wad... i really... brr... haattee her...

penned at ¶ 9:08 AM