Friday, September 26, 2003

i have been so bloody busy that i dun even have time to sleep.. finally now everything's over and done with... for now.. cos i dun see any of my project mates online.. hmm... once tmr's assessment is done, everything will be over! err.. except for another report and a presentation next week.. yikes.. not so over..

my whole brain and body's screamin for rest and yet im still not sleeping.. i wonder why do i subject myself to such torture for others.. wad the heck.. they dun even care a teeny..

why cant they be a lil more sensitive.. or maybe im too sensitive.. fuc.

penned at ¶ 1:30 AM

Friday, September 19, 2003

jus chatted with this fella who sent me his photo after a very very long chat... he's the same age as my bro, and i felt weird initially talking to him normally like i wld to a friend.. but even though he looks mature and talks a lil maturely.. i still feel the kid inside him.. kids these days are growing so fast that you cant even grasp at which line their thinking lies anymore.. maybe i treat him like my bro dats why im advisin him.. hiakz..

anw on a side note.. my bro jus msged me a few days to sorta confide in me abt things dat are happening in the house and things dat he doesnt like.. i feel we grew so much closer over the weekend cos we were all each other had in the house! prolly thanks to HIM too cos he spent quite some time wif bro watching soccer.. ;p
and.. ive been really quite jolly tis few days.. funny how small things can just bring ur mood way high up and way down sometimes... but things are going on fine.. malay test over.. 303 report done.. jus solved a small bug out of many many bugs in my db proj.. =)

nitey..

penned at ¶ 3:55 AM

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

i have no faith.
i have no trust.
im a paranoid freak.
but i dun want to be like this..

penned at ¶ 11:47 PM

Friday, September 12, 2003

actually ive been quite happy for the past few days, minus the losing treasured possessions incident.. things have been goin quite well.. me doing my projects (however little the part i was doing), not studying anything at all cos there was NO time.. spending a whole lot of time with him..

well well and so all good things have to come to an end... even when i spend like totally 2-3 days with certain friends, after i part with them, i'll become oh so emotional dat i'll miss them like hell, muchworse if the friend is him.. sighz.. now i miss my bro.. my parents.. and im already missing him.. dang.. wad am i? emo-freak.. =X

penned at ¶ 5:52 PM

lost my ring on tues durin the bbq......

hp got stolen on wed at zouk..

tell me how suay can i get? both were possessions from him which i treasured alot.. sigh..
and it will be ~~$$$~~

penned at ¶ 3:21 PM

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

my habit of checking it is now being the thing dat is destroying me.. i can't seem to stop myself.. the more i check, the more i destroy myself.. what can be the way?

and. i have yet to choose my IA company. and its due on wed. fish..

penned at ¶ 1:41 AM

Thursday, September 04, 2003

i think im goin to do something drastic to myself soon... prolly it sounds too serious here.. but i really cant cope with all these..

i just want to be happy.. i dun want anything else... why can i just be happy?

penned at ¶ 8:15 PM