Saturday, May 31, 2003

i feel kinda sad if ppl reject me when i ask them to come... especially ppl who matter to me. well of course they matter to me if they are invited in the first place. sigh.

penned at ¶ 1:08 AM

Tuesday, May 27, 2003

haha.. guess what... my mum actually said she will be very unwilling the next time she have to sit in the passenger's seat while im driving cos i give her heart attacks.. well.. she gives me heart attacks too.. i prefer to drive alone.. hah... i can judge myself of course..
anyway sometimes i think the age limit for learning to drive shld be increased to 21 or something.. i think youngsters learning to drive at the age of 18 or 19 is way too early.. some are too reckless.. too blur too dangerous.. they drive like they own the road or their father paid for the road.. especially when i read some sites on how they drive.. true enough.. some are not done on purpose.. who wants to experience accidents? but some.. still.. even though its the minority.. they still drive like they think they're experts.. so when when.. when are they gonna increase the age limit? i fear for my own life on the road.. yikes..

penned at ¶ 6:43 PM

Sunday, May 25, 2003

Had a great time today at the beach.. Happy birthday kengfai!

havent seen those guys for a very long time.. all 7 of them.. haha okok excluding one of course.. the birthday boy was down within minutes of drinking the lethal concoction =p he was down for at least 2 hrs! haha.. poor fella.. i drank a little too.. but not too much cos i had to drive home after dat.. it sure was weird hangin out with them and him together.. i cant really behave normally with the both groups tgt.. tSk.. dunno how to describe the exact feeling.. but it sure isnt natural.. hiaz.. anyway i took lotsa photos of them.. without me of cos.. since im the eager photographer.. =p

penned at ¶ 2:02 AM

Friday, May 23, 2003

ok.. the feeling of missing home while im in school and missing school while im at home is back again.. woohoo.. bought my new cam cam! =p have yet to go out and use it yet.. took a photo of a bustop while on a bus and i like it alot.. haha.. i dun have high expectations of miself.. as long as my hands doesnt shake and there are many colours in it.. im happy! =) been rotting around and growing shoots and headaches at home.. went for an interview telemarketing for starhub cable tv.. not alot of money.. and it doesnt take away my idle time in the day either.. but well.. its at least abit of money to tide me thru while i wait for some other jobs to come in..

penned at ¶ 1:30 AM

Sunday, May 18, 2003

if theres anything i learnt from last nite.. its dat we shld just love and love freely.. really.. i was so regretting all the things i wanted to do but didnt actually do it.. never hesitate to do anything.. else it might be too late to do it.. i dun want to be taken away from my loved ones.. *prays* it got so high at 3am that i really thot i was goin to die.. thank god it came down again... me get well soon i hope....

penned at ¶ 2:05 PM

Thursday, May 15, 2003

aaah... my legs are breaking.. aching like mad... im old... as i look at the youngsters dancing ard me jus now i feel like an old lady trying to act young in between them..

many things have changed.. roads near my house.. structure at the mrt station.. entrance fees.. typical time to reach zouk.. and many more to come.. i feel like ive been trapped in a hidden cave and finally found my way outta there.. more changes to come i expect.. but my resolution for the next 2 weeks.. to find a job.. anybody got any temp jobs for 2 months to recommend? pretty please?

penned at ¶ 4:42 AM

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

As i study the 2nd last chapter for the last paper (yay!!), i came across this.. "The inability to recognise our own feelings means that we will not be able to control or take charge of our emotions.." hmm.. its true.. i really dunno how i feel sometimes.. and so my heart ends up controlling the matter.. causing uncontrollable destruction, be it good or bad.

penned at ¶ 11:03 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2003

i feel so loved eating potato salad made with love.... yup the boy did it himself.. well with all the ready made ingredients by his aunt of course.. and brought it all the way to hall for me! how sweet! =D

its amazing how i can be pissed and loved by XY chromosomes in one day....

penned at ¶ 12:08 AM

Saturday, May 10, 2003

does anyone know where to get voodoo dolls and thick sharp pins??
I cant help but snigger at what would happen if i would really do it to him. My violent thoughts are getting worse each day as the interaction counter increases with every minute. Lemme recall, have i ever loathe someone so much to think this way? yeh, maybe her. But obviously now he has replaced her in that category. Hurray for him. I fucking hate XY chromosomes for the past 4 hours, and maybe for the next 10 hours as well.

The fan is acting up again. I shan't off it the next time i go out.

penned at ¶ 4:49 PM

Friday, May 09, 2003

*stabs*

i kind of feel like stabbing him sometimes or picture it in my twisted mind.. leecher and a selfish basket(tard).. complains when we go on first and openly says "next!" out loud when hes freakin done.. fuggg!! but then.. i really have no choice do i? 3 more sems of this to go... it always happens onli at this time.. sigh..

penned at ¶ 7:31 PM

Thursday, May 08, 2003

relieved.

she's back shes back!! im goin to see her soon!! *skips*

penned at ¶ 8:53 PM

Wednesday, May 07, 2003

i wonder if i shld just throw away the flower basket j gave me last yr... been keepin it till now.. no more space on my shelf...... shld i.. shld i not.. shld i.......

ears: Dishwalla - Angels and Devils

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

penned at ¶ 12:14 AM

Monday, May 05, 2003

just talked to aj on icq for 1 hr.. havent seen her since school closed for study breaks and exams.. didnt see her on fri durin 205 too.. glad to hear shes happy now.. she even got herself a new phone! heh.. missed her and the other guys loads.. but i guess after the exams everyone wld be too bz wif their private lives to meet up.. hope dats not the case though..

penned at ¶ 2:49 AM

Saturday, May 03, 2003

is this a fucking day or what.

i came back feeling great. 2 secs later im in a bad mood. went for a run around the school alone. came back. still felt low. real low. he called. i had no mood. meiyan bought teh peng for me. very nice girl. delivered it right up to my doorstep when i went to bathe. i drank 1/4. wanted to hang it on my cupboard. dropped. spilt the fucking packet of tea all over the floor. spent the next 45 mins soaking up the tea. knocked my head against the very edge i was supposed to hang the packet of tea. fuck.

penned at ¶ 1:12 AM

Friday, May 02, 2003

xmen 2 totally rocks.. great movie.. everyone shld catch it.. yeh and i oughta be spanked hard for catching a movie in the midst of all the 'e'..s.. i cant wait to catch this after watchin the previews just now.. guess it would totally blow me away.. anyway the paper today sucked.. part a totally killed us all.. heard even the foreign students didnt expect those to come out too.. im just bangin hard on part b to save me from seeing those ASK, FSK and PSKs next yr.. erk..

anw.. was reading the news here about the turkey earthquake.. with all the children trapped underneath... dead or alive no one noes.. cant imagine if im ever one of those kids trapped there.. slowly waiting.. pray the rescuers find them soon.. am i glad dat im in sg..

penned at ¶ 10:11 PM