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Sunday, August 21, 2005
i aint in the matchmaking business..
seriously sometimes i think im open minded, but im actually not.
i hang around guys alot due to my nature of work and half of my close friends being guys. i would think i have gotten used to their usual topic of soccer and girls but no sometimes the topic of girls just get on my nerves, alot.
whenever i went out with the girls, i will usually post a picture of them on my msn avatar.
its fine with me if you just wanna comment my friend is pretty or she looks familiar, its not very fine with me if you keep asking me all the time whos this girl on the left?
whos this girl on the right? especially not if you are fucking attached to a nice girl! yes you might be my friend, or colleague, or buddy, but no i dun like you to ask me about other girls if you are attached.
wtf?
you can see and drool quietly, but don't ask me about it.
prolly cus im so cool and anything about guys telling me anything under the sun, they mistake this coolness for wadever they think im fine with..
d: who's this girl on the left?
n: my friend la..
d: from where?
n: frm secondary school la why so kpo
d: oh shes quite pretty attached or not?
n: why u ask? dun u have a gf?
d: yah but can see mah
n: see lor, but dun ask me.
im starting to ignore all tis fucking shit i get, from not 1, 2 guys, but from at least 4-5.. i want to slap their head with a trout the next time they ask me in person.
keep ur head on ur shoulders be faithful to ur gf, let ur eyes roam but dun let ur thots run wild. im cool with anything you chat with me, but not on the topic relating to unfaithfulness.
maybe im too sensitive about it, but i just dun like it.
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
had a good day today at fb.
for once it was a feel good session..
i guess we're all getting scared but those who oughta come aint here.. and well those who r here are the oldbies.. ah well we'll see.. think coach's kinda upset about the turnout cus he couldnt try out which combinations produce the best results. bo bianz, sick and got other matches are definitely good reasons..
still unsure about where my future lies.
everyday at work i stone for 10 mins and wonder what the hell am i doin and i have no idea where im heading for with this current job.
i seriously have no idea.
rough it out a few more months to really see the situation?
maybe.
things havent exactly been smooth sailing for me, in every single aspect of my life.
i can forsee a huge grey cloud looming ahead but i hope that wouldnt be in the very near future. but then again, how do you decide, when both sides of the hands are your very own palms?
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Monday, August 15, 2005
very interesting/meaningful/funny/touching site.. have a look, make your day..
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
somehow, i have no idea why, i have been swinging high and lo on emotions lately..
ok maybe thats not really a rare sight but considering what i have been busy with i shouldnt be so.
been filling my days with lots of meet ups with friends so that i wouldnt be alone after work at home. i cant make up my mind about what ive been feeling these days.. it just a turmoil in the empty head of mine.. i cant do things well at work cus afterall im still a newbie of one month.. at times i think im not cut out for the job after 4 yrs of studying.. and yes i know there are people who don't stick to their field of study.. but not me. im resistant to changes.. i hate to drift off the normal course of life, and thats why even if ive made a mistake, i stay on no matter what.. but, im still thinking..
i think i should stop trying to be too many different people at a time.. i cant take it anymore.. its just all cramped in me. my mind switches from one to another with the snap of fingers.
where are the days where i lived everyday carefreely without all the war in my head raging against each other? i cant even remember when, but its probably 12 years ago..
im sorry i dun make any sense at all. i jus wanted somewhere to vent my random thoughts.
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