Monday, October 31, 2005
finally a good day's rest after all that's happened in the past week..
grandpa finally left us last wed in the wee hours in the morning.. i was sleeping in the same room 3 metres from him and mum and bro had jus came back to the hospice from home to change shift with me and dad.. she took a look at him, he was still fine, he opened his eyes and looked at her and acknowledged her, the next few seconds he didnt take his next breathe. mum called out to us and we were all waiting for him to breathe in, but it never came. we called out to him and touched him, but he didnt awake. after that was a blurr. me and dad went to the police station at amk to register his death, bro told me to look more at him before he went for the embalming. one thing though, he didnt look as peaceful as grandma did before and after embalming. due to his pain and suffering prolly.
the wake was held at the same place as grandma's. everybody came, everybody went. i was busy serving drinks and collecting the money or donations wadever. it was like a gathering of some sort other than the fact my grandpa was lying in the coffin a few metres from the people.
this time i witnessed the entire process from the start to the very end of laying his bones in the urn. didnt get to do that last yr for grandma cus i was rushing back to school to complete a project i'd already requested for an extension of deadline i remem. it wasnt as hard letting him go this time round after having lost grandma last yr, but i guess its cus ive done whatever i can for him and i knew it wld be better for him to be released of his pain.
i love him as much as i love grandma.
i hope they're catching up fine up there.
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
all of a sudden, i sorted out my europe photos for developing.
all of a sudden, i missed these peeps whom ive spent over 20 days with day and night.
all of a sudden, i want to relive those days again..
the yummylicious duckrice at bayswater..
the dancing session at red gutters..
the drooling of ALL the girls over stevie..
the staying together of all the girls against the 19 yr old pervy..
the tonnes of hugs and goodbyes in front of the coach..
i miss them!!! boo hoo!!

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Monday, October 17, 2005
is the first one who steps out of a failed relationship into a new one always the winner?
how do we know if we have really moved on?
or are we really deluded?
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
fucking hell. fuck fuck fucker. asshole. tmd.
remember dat arse who kept asking me about who's who in my msn pics? yesh its the same guy dats pissin me off. he bugs me the whole day on msn and with my slow and one worded replies, he still doesnt get it to fuck off.
hes a colleague at work. different team but doing similar assignments as me. me being in a smaller project with only 2 persons and him in a project with at least 7, will have alot of past documentations to refer to. and becus my partner doesnt do documentations well, i have no earlier fucking documentations to refer to so i went to ask him since we're doing docs for similar assignments.. now he asks me whether im slow to pick up at work.. and asks me to pick up faster esp things like documentations..
and i tot newbies are supposed to help newbies! fuck.
kill me i will also nv ask help from him again.
fucker. i still gotta see him tmr. hope he gets an mc and spare me 1 more day of incessant talks.
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Sunday, October 09, 2005
finally the department bbq is over..
it was a good day. it went quite successfully but there were quite alot of food leftover.. but dats usually the case, rite..
alot of people turned up, surprisingly..
i like the people in my company, cant say so for the job though.
nothing much to say lately, been going out regularly with a friend recently.. this week he'll be gone, i'll feel bored again with no one to entertain me! :(
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