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Thursday, August 31, 2006
whew. have been veeeeerry busy the past few days. so busy that i can't even remember today is wed or thur.
been shuffling from home to work, to the doc, to home and to work. time flew past at work and now i think 8 hours is too short for me to complete any work. but i feel absolutely tired when i get home. well at least after the past few days of slogging over time, ive finally completed doing others' shit. now im goin back to clear my own shit which i have neglected for almost a week. it feels more satisfying doing your own work as compared to others'.
my back's much much better now. im almost back to 99% good. somehow a thot came to my mind and i was discussin with my boy about it. im not sure if its the doc's massaging and pushing and pulling thats helpin or is it my body mechanism dat is healing the back. but i definitely will not do any sports at least for the next 2 months. f.a.t. :(
my poor boy too has been busy with work this week working to as late as.. now! almost midnight! man. and this will go on for at least the next 1 week and very very busy till 20 sept. :(
anyhoo. last weekend i was supposed to go shopping with the girls, but cus of my back i had to cancel out on them. but they were still supposed to meet without me. and as usual, hs was late. on top of dat, she didnt reply ps sms nor her calls.
guess what?
she left her phone at home. AGAIN. for the umpteen time, this is a girl who is in the sales line. yes, she had family problems cropped up at the last minute, but since she knows shes supposed to be meeting us, isnt she supposed to TRY and contact us? what if we werent her friends but her clients? poor ps was left waiting there for 1 hour. we were used to her being late and all, but this time i wasnt around to lessen the impact and this really pissed me and ps off even though i wasnt the one waiting for her. i hate it when people are late, REGULARLY.
oh well, maybe she really had her reasons as she said. maybe. i hope she comes up with good and reasonable excuses this time round.
i'm being sarcastic even as im trying to plan her birthday dinner. oh well. i still love her in my heart. :s
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Friday, August 25, 2006
i'm at home again becus i can't walk to work.
this time the pain is really quite bad. last night my boy brought me to see the doc. i couldnt even walk the few steps from the car to the clinic. the pain hurts so much everytime i put weight on the right leg. i just want to give up and stop walking. :'(
even now at home, i struggle to stand up. i struggle to make my first step. i need to move my right leg around, get it warmed up before i can walk 80% ok-ly. popping panadols with my chinese med.
i seem a tough girl on the outside, but i doubt i have the will to keep myself alive if im struck with any incapability or illness. i'll just give up and give myself to whatever will take me away. i'd rather not be a burden to anybody.
it saddens me to realise my lack of will.
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
weekends always seem so short these days. never enough. :( perhaps im having too much fun. heh.
been getting very short fused recently. i just snap at anything or anyone who doesnt does things my way. and my poor boy has been getting the brunt of it. =( maybe i take things too seriously around me. i shouldn't let what others do get to me. i should only care about my family and myself and my boy. no point fretting over others. if you don't like it, jolly well don't force yourself to like it. feels even more miserable after that.
i wanna catch Notre Dame de Paris. but they're performing at indoor stadium, and that isnt a very good place for watching musicals, or so a friend says.. should i should i?
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Monday, August 14, 2006
went for the company's orientation today. how stupid. after i have worked for 1 yr plus.
anyway i was all alone today at the company's auditorium. a lil proud of myself having survived being alone for 3 hours. yea wad a joke. didn't attempt to speak to the person i was seating next to. but durin the 10 min break after i made myself a cuppa coffee i spotted a girl who looked alone too and i went to ask her to look after my cup while i went to toilet. heh. sounded like a pick up line. and after the break i was all alone again.
i don't mind being alone in my own confined space where nobody can see me. but i just don't like to be out in the open.
side tracking, bro's relationship is on the rocks. it has even escalated to involve both families to try to step in and resolve it. hai. young kids these days, as my mum would put it, put way too much on relationships, and when it doesnt work out, who feels the pain? ourselves. but that is the only way we learn. we learn from failed relationships.
i hope he'll be fine.
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
went to the docs today, and i had eye infection!! no contacts for the next 1 week at least! no books, no staring at comp (duh then i no need work already) , no tv, no sun, no beach, no sea breeze, no hugs, no close contact. i feel like a hermit already. :s
spent some time with mum today when she went to order contact lenses with me today. met aj for dinner at j8. havent seen her since her birthday in feb. still the same. =) we still bitch about everything. we're both too comfortably stuck in our job to move our asses. boy, i really feel underpaid after catching up with a few uni classmates recently. =(
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