Wednesday, February 28, 2007

im in a dilemma.

and nobody's free to hear my silence.

penned at ¶ 10:07 PM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

hermified.

cny.. cny.. ah. im starting to kinda dislike cny. collecting ang pows yeap im cool with that. mixing around with relatives, im not into it. i dun fit in. i dun gamble much. i dun watch chinese tv game shows. i dun gossip well. and i dun like being compared. i stick out like a true sore thumb among them.

simple things i try to do as is polite of a guest in the house, trying to help out, was rebutted by relatives as me not doing anything in my own house, just becus i asked a mere question of where something is. my god. this aint my house, im asking a perfectly logical question, and it is not where it should be had it been in my house. i am rebutted as being the xiao jie because of fucking gossips. if this had been said because i just left my plates and bowls there after i finished eating, i have nothing to say. but i attempted to clean up, to help, only to be said by these gossipy people.

which is why i resolute to hole up in my room today while occasionally showing my face to the gambling crowd below. they can say all they want. i dun care. wad does it matter if i do any good? it will be overshadowed anyway. thank god i wont be free for the next few gatherings. i'd just disappear.

maybe i am being too hermified. i dislike being surrounded by people. my communication skills with people have deteriorated. i prefer to be alone. to be hermified. need to find a serene place for my hideout in the future.

penned at ¶ 8:28 PM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

met up with mad for din and drinks at alleybar today.

it was good catching up. i can't even remember when was the last time i met up with her alone. we recapped each other on the 1001 things in our lives. i simply remember only bits and pieces of everybody's life.

although initially i was quite sian to go out and meet friends, well, it sorta adds a lil variety in my otherwise boring life. work, applications for jobs, interviews.. yada yada..

penned at ¶ 10:53 PM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Some pics we took from bangkok..

this time round i wasn't as fit as last year. must be cus im out of sports action for some time. haha. kev was even fitter than me! when i started complaining of leg and thigh aches he was still perfectly ok. heh. trained up by me. student surpassed the master..

anw while we were there, the soccer finals was also there. i was really quite worried about it after what happened locally. we didnt even say we were from sg. when i mentioned sg a few times accidentally, i was shot the murderous glance by kev. heh.

anyhow, the new airport in bkk wasnt as bad as what they reported in the papers, it wasn't that crowded. but then again, maybe we didnt hit the peak hour. the entire airport was mainly glass. kinda like the hkg airport. but there were some places where the wires and walls werent kept tuck away from public view.

when we visited suan lum, almost all the stalls with a tv were tuned in to the match. we had to try very hard not to look too interested in the match and the score when we walked by. kinda relieved when the opposing country took the lead. but then ultimately sg still won.

super tiring this trip even though it was 1 day shorter than last year.. came back with lotsa goodies! but i was beaten in that section by my boy.. he bought more stuff than me! faintz.

penned at ¶ 11:39 PM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

i'm backkk!

updates later!

penned at ¶ 1:40 AM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

met up with the ex-colleagues today.

funny how topics change. funny how we all have more things to talk about now then when we were colleagues. i guess theres not much of a solid barrier now, in case of backstabbing, sensitivity issues. nope. all was good.

2 of them are getting married soon! (the time has come! damn.) topics revolving around weddings, rings, packages, house, money, etc..

came home to busily pack my bags for bkk tmr. bloody hell, i booked 4 months ago and the finals have to be when i'm there? i am actually a lil worried about being there, but heck, if its meant to happen, it has to happen.

going to the temple later. not becus of the finals nor the tension, had already planned long ago. hopefully we come back safely!

look out for my safe post. yikes. :s

penned at ¶ 12:22 AM